This is a tough moment in life for me.
It is tough to show weakness.
It is tough to admit when you can’t do things.
It is tough to rely on others.
It is tough to feel defeated.
My #multiplesclerosis journey has been so much easier than most, but it still does affect me in ways I don’t like to admit. I don’t like to be weak. I don’t like to be in pain. No one really ever does…..
But, this is a huge step for me in that I finally decided to break down and buy a cane.
I hate the idea of using it. But I hate how feel when I’m having a flare-up even more. There’s only been about five days in the past six months where I’ve felt I really needed to use one, and not having one was brutal. I decided I didn’t want to get caught in that moment again.
Do I need to use it all the time? No, definitely not. But it will be here when I do need it. That brings me a little piece of mind. I’m sure the day I actually use it will be an emotional one for me, but for now this is at least a good first step.
Then I finally realized, this is NOT weakness.
There is strength in me knowing my limitations.
There is strength in taking care of myself.
There is strength in me still trying to walk, even if it’s difficult.
There is strength in me being okay to admit I can’t do it all.
There is strength in me setting an example for others who are in the same position.
There is strength in this girl!
BONUS – at least it’s pretty!!
